home

Every spoken word interpreted as something mean. When I don't talk they think I am mad. When I talk, they don't interest. Everything I do is wrong. That's why I feel strange in my home. I think something called home is a place where you can share anything with your family member, do silly things, be yourself, and still accepted. It's not what I feel. I have one brother, and yes, he's totally different with me. He's smart, diligent, and patient. The problem is our different being compared and it is totally sucks. How can you wish both of your child become that perfect?
You always angry when I hang out with my friend frequently, but have you realize that I go because I feel not wanted? I don't know, I am too sensitive or what, but it's really hurt when you treat me like that.

happy birthday to me

I'm officially 18 today! I am so thankful because God let me to see the world for 18 years. I feel totally blessed because I have a super super super family that always support me and friends that always stay beside me. I totally feel wanted, loved.

This doll is a gift from celine. I don't know this is rilakkuma's head or not (yes, I am crazy about rilakkuma!), but it's totally cute and soft!

This pretty birthday card is from inke

She bought me this mug because few days ago, I met this mug and I say to her "this mug was so cute, right?" and then TARAAAAA!

NB : I just wanna say THANK YOU for all the birthday wishes, for the gift, for the cake, for the surprise from EOK-ers, for everything! Thank you, thank you, thank you!

too late

I miss blogging. I miss holiday. I miss my high school. I miss how I can spend my day in front of my laptop watching DVD, browsing, and blogging! I am totally busy. I've a lot of school's things to do, I've prepare for presentation every week, I have no time even for hang out and it's so stressful.
By the way, as I said before, here is my orientation photo :

Here is my outfits and things that I need for complete this project. Yellow top and pants with '16', totally cute but shameful domo shower cap, toothbrush, toothpaste, mineral water for mouthwash, and I am ready to find the traffic light! GO GO GO!

The result :

And the shocking news : THE PHOTO INCORRECT, because the traffic lamp pillar must be yellow too! OH!Then I take a photo again with my friend in Saturday night, at the traffic lamp in front of mall, when every people around watching us.

oh man.

finally it's over!

Oh finally I can my normal life is come back!
Almost 2 weeks having an orientation day on my university really make me imprisoned.
Every morning before the sun-up, I've go to my university and go home when the sun already gone. I just sleep for 3 hours everyday because orientation's committee give a lot of task to do. I feel like a walking zombie for this 2 weeks. The first week, I have an orientation week for every new collage student named PRODAMMABA (PROgram penDAMpingan MAhasiswa BAru), then the second week, I have an orientation week for dentistry students named LDKM-TA (Latihan Dasar Kepemimpinan Mahasiswa - Temu Akrab). LDKM is totally complicated, because if someone make a mistake, all of us will get a punishment, because they say, when one of us make a mistake, it's one group's faults, and group's faults is everyone's fault. Dentistry orientation's committee ask all of us to bring something, but it must be same with each other.  For example, they ask us to bring 5 kind of food but it must be yellow, bring yellow lunchbox, black bag, make a paper about Kalimantan, etc. They also ask us to have a photo with a yellow shirt with the number 16 in black on the middle, yellow pants, and shower cup. The photo must be taken in the traffic light with the yellow pole when the yellow lamp turn on and one of your hand must be brushing the teeth until the foam is seen and the other hand make a 'peace'. And if you ask me, what I feel when I take that photo, I totally don't care what people thing about me. I just acting like that road is mine. HAHAHA!(Don't worry, I'll post that scandalous photo next time, just wait!)
And finally, after every experience i got from the orientation, IT IS OVER! And I feel really happy and sad in the same time. It will be the last orientation for me and I will be missing every moment (include that super handsome committee! LOL).

vintage-form

I'll post my picture from Malaysia after this because............. yeah, I am too lazy to get my DSLR cable and move the picture there to my laptop, so wait until next post! :p.
Almost a month ago, me and my friend, yoan and icil decided to taken a pictures with the professional photographer in our town and we choose Fey photography (again, for me and icil). I highly recommend their service to you who want to get a beautiful pictures of yourself with an affordable price. You won't regret it, I promise ;)

The first theme is vintage. The photographer ask where we want to take the photo and we say up to you, so she recommend mangrove.

The sun is so bright (you can see yoan's eyes just like a line, right?), the grass is tingle, and my heels is destroyed. But I just totally happy because my struggle is completely paid. These pictures is so lovely!

The second theme is school uniform. We just want to make a pictures with school uniform to show that we've ever been Sinlui students and we are so proud of it!

We are talking about how we miss our high school life, how we miss to wear that uniform, how we miss each other, how we miss our friends and teachers, and how we love our high school.

3 years not a long time for me. It just too fast that my high school is end. I get a lot of experiences, friends, knowledge and memories there. I've nothing to regret. I just want to say sorry if I ever hurt your heart, and I want to say thank you to you, who stay beside me no matter what, who stay support me, who keep believe in me, who give me a hug when they know something wrong happen to me, who make me know that there is a lot of people that still love me just the way I am. Thank you.

homy home

Welcome home! I've just arrived at Surabaya yesterday and I really exhausted after clean up my house, so I decided to make a post today, and here is it.

Tarakan is not a big town. I think it is so small! You can go everywhere in that town just in less then 45 minutes (with car of course :p). What a small city, but have a pretty beach. I show this photo to my friend and she think I take this photo when I go to Bali few month ago. Honestly, the beach and the sky is not as blue as you see and not as pretty as you think. It just effect from my DSLR, in a good way I mean.

Another things I like from Tarakan is the environment. I am proudly say that it is still so green. I've ever see Tarakan's map and you know, more than half of this city is a forest!

Nevertheless, Tarakan is hotter than Surabaya! I don't know how come a lot of tree cannot reduce that.