over again

Haven't post anything for a month because I'm enjoying my holiday *wink*. Went to my hometown couple weeks ago to take my e-ktp, and then I went to Bali and Jakarta. I'll post about that next time.

Find out some quotes and pictures from tumblr that matched with my current feeling, so i want to share it.  

have you ever heard that stressed backwards spells desserts? lol

 

 xx

 

messy bun with a cute ribbon is a good choice when you're too lazy to blow it, rite? ;)

every girl has those problem.

 

 if you don't have something good to talk, then keep your mouth shut and don't hurt others with your words.

everyone has their own opinion about something they like or not, so please, respect others opinion as well. you don't know how much i hurt when i talk about things that i want, then you said it was ugly and tell me not to buy it, without looking twice. I was heartbroken. I was cried in my silent.

Then, i learned something. You can't ask people to have the same taste with you. If you don't agree with my opinion then tell me with a good words. It's better not to break people's heart.

daydreaming

This post must be posted last week but i forgot it. My bad, sorry :(
I got a long holiday (almost one month), although it's not a semester holiday. You jealous, right? hahaha. But having a holiday like this make me more depressed because i don't know what should i do and end up watching running man all day long. I sit in front of my laptop and online almost 8 hours every day and make myself very very unproductive, 진짜.  I also eat a lot since I have too much free time. I think I am gonna be a polar bear if I got one-year-holiday. *sigh*

cry

when you angry, what you do?

when you disappointed, what you do?

when you sad, what you do?

cry.

 

i am kind of people who can cry easily when i watch a romantic drama, but not easily cry when people angry with me. but, when it comes to my parent, i turn into a cry-out baby. every words they said killing me slowly. i feel disappointed yet angry in the same time, and what i do is cry.

i just make a quick post because honestly, i need to talk with someone right now or just write that on my blog. btw, i am in love with flower lately ( i don't hate flower before, okay?). maybe because i am watch a lot of drama or because i am become a hopeless romantic person. :p

image from tumblr.

loneliness

I think loneliness is bothering me. i don't know why. even there's a lot of people beside me, but i still feel i am alone. who can i trust? who hate me? who talk behind me?  i can't even make sure that my close friend love me as much as i do. life is gonna complicated because my heart works too hard, i think.

btw, i am tired being "bullied". i give " " because it's an implicit bullying. i mean, they're playing with me and because i respond it with a laugh, they become more annoying. started with a small action, then it comes to execrable. they pull my chair and it started. they draw my hand with a pen, they sign in my book, they got my stitch pencil case and playing with the stitch's tail. i can't move because the teacher was there and their foot hold my chair. so i stuck there. they call me fragile because i don't fight beck after what they do. i told you, it's not because i can't, but i don't want to. i am not angry. seriously. i am just tired.

and for whoever got bullied, be strong! maybe i can't give you a better motivation, but i know what you feel. remember, karma does exist.

just wait.

have a test next week so i need to studying right know. wish me tons of luck.

Rooftop

It's been a month since my last post. So sorry. I really miss blogging but tons of assignment are waiting for me. I've no time just to watching DVD, or even refreshing my mind. I am trying the best on my first test a week ago and I still waiting for the result now. Wish me luck for that test okay?

By the way, I am finished watching korean drama "Rooftop prince". It's about a prince named Lee Gak which is comes from 300 years ago into future to find out mystery behind her princess's death. In the present day, the prince meet Hong Se Na who has an uncanny resemblance to his deceased Princess. Then he decided to marry that girl, so he can find out who killed his princess.

But, the prince fall in love with Park ha who is reincarnation from her princess's sister, Bu yong.

At last, Lee Gak realize that the girl who was death isn't his princess, but Bu yong. Bu yong eat the served persimmon that has been poisoned by the princess, and dressed as the princess and jump into the lake, so everyone will think the princess died.

With her last strength, Bu yong write a message for the prince. She tells that she has loved the prince since they were young.

This drama is tells us that if two people are meant together, there is no reason, no time can tear them apart. No matter what era, Lee Gak has fall for her, again and again.

home

Every spoken word interpreted as something mean. When I don't talk they think I am mad. When I talk, they don't interest. Everything I do is wrong. That's why I feel strange in my home. I think something called home is a place where you can share anything with your family member, do silly things, be yourself, and still accepted. It's not what I feel. I have one brother, and yes, he's totally different with me. He's smart, diligent, and patient. The problem is our different being compared and it is totally sucks. How can you wish both of your child become that perfect?
You always angry when I hang out with my friend frequently, but have you realize that I go because I feel not wanted? I don't know, I am too sensitive or what, but it's really hurt when you treat me like that.

finally it's over!

Oh finally I can my normal life is come back!
Almost 2 weeks having an orientation day on my university really make me imprisoned.
Every morning before the sun-up, I've go to my university and go home when the sun already gone. I just sleep for 3 hours everyday because orientation's committee give a lot of task to do. I feel like a walking zombie for this 2 weeks. The first week, I have an orientation week for every new collage student named PRODAMMABA (PROgram penDAMpingan MAhasiswa BAru), then the second week, I have an orientation week for dentistry students named LDKM-TA (Latihan Dasar Kepemimpinan Mahasiswa - Temu Akrab). LDKM is totally complicated, because if someone make a mistake, all of us will get a punishment, because they say, when one of us make a mistake, it's one group's faults, and group's faults is everyone's fault. Dentistry orientation's committee ask all of us to bring something, but it must be same with each other.  For example, they ask us to bring 5 kind of food but it must be yellow, bring yellow lunchbox, black bag, make a paper about Kalimantan, etc. They also ask us to have a photo with a yellow shirt with the number 16 in black on the middle, yellow pants, and shower cup. The photo must be taken in the traffic light with the yellow pole when the yellow lamp turn on and one of your hand must be brushing the teeth until the foam is seen and the other hand make a 'peace'. And if you ask me, what I feel when I take that photo, I totally don't care what people thing about me. I just acting like that road is mine. HAHAHA!(Don't worry, I'll post that scandalous photo next time, just wait!)
And finally, after every experience i got from the orientation, IT IS OVER! And I feel really happy and sad in the same time. It will be the last orientation for me and I will be missing every moment (include that super handsome committee! LOL).

wheel of life

"What has happened before, even it's hurt, let it go. Or you'll always life in the past."

I just realized that I am already a college student, not a high school student anymore! Next month I'll start my college in the faculty of dentistry. Yes, I'll be a dentist in 4 years later (or 5? I forget it! lol)! It just unbelievable for me. If you ask every kids on primary school what they want to be when they are grown, most of them will say "I want to be a doctor!", so do I. When I was a kid, I want to be a doctor or a pharmacist. I think it's cool to wear a doctor coat. But when I am on high school, I know to be a doctor is not as easy as I think, and I know I am not that smart. So I am applying for faculty of pharmaceutical, and being approved. Then, many people tell me that study about a pharmacist is same with doctor( read : to hard for my brain). Actually, I don't know what I want to be. I love dress, i love fashion, but I know my parent wouldn't let me to be a fashion designer. They 'implicitly' just give me three option. A doctor, a dentist, or a pharmacist. Because I think doctor and pharmacist are to hard for me, so I choose to be a dentist!
I am not the kind of people who wouldn't do something I don't want, and I think be a dentist is not bad, right? We just live once, dare to try! :)

inside of all

"Even if the world betray you, you just yourself. Be brave, to stand up if you thing that is right, even it means you must stand alone."

Judging is something that you cannot avoid. It comes to you. Some is for your good, some is not.

I think everyone ever get a judge. So do I.

Not just from your friends, sometimes your family do.

People say you don't well-dressed, you have bad personality, you are nerd, and another kind of judge.

Don't be angry. What you need to show them is the prove. Maybe you're not perfect (yeah, nobody perfect), but you are worth it, just the way you are.

Your approval is not needed. My life is not based on other people's expectations. I am born this way.

Don't be afraid of being judged, maybe some people might hate you for it but some people will love you for it, be silly, be crazy, be you.

A paper of life.

Life is never easy. Is you to decide how your life will be go. When problem comes to you, what will you do? You face it bravely, or just run from it, it is your choice.

You must be know that life is equated with a book. When you born, you are like a new book without any scratch inside that book. Just clean, and pure.
Day by day, that book will be filled with a lot of words from you. Some is good but some is not.

Have you read a book and find a difficult plot? Will you stay on that pages until you understand, or just through that plot and read the next chapter? This parable is same when you get a conflict. When you write your story on the book and make a mistake, what will you do, let it go or not? It is up to yourself.

"Don't stay on the same page for a long time. Just let it go, or you'll never end the story. Don’t rush into your life, even in fairy tales the happy ending takes place on the last page." 

Book is like God's plan for us in the world. Just enjoy it. Story without conflict is just boring, right? :)

when love gonna wrong.

Have you ever had a feeling when you just realize that you've already fall for someone but at the same time you know you mustn't have that kind of feeling? You know you mustn't because it's you that expect too much from the little things he do. Don't stop to love. Love not a mistake. Your feeling is. Just remember, too much expectation can hurt you too much.

exam week

This week is the exam week on my school.

Just so stressful when i realized that so many things to do but I just have a little time.

 And what I do when I stressed? I'm eat.

Another things that make me stressed is i can"t control myself to eat! *sad*

shadows

I just found that old photo on my phone. And it like I recall what happened on that day. Time goes so fast right? That night my friend take me to a mall and we've a lot of fun there. We eat a lot on sushi tei and play at fun world after it.

 Halloween \^^/

 sushi <3

 After having a lot of fun inside the mall, we make a little experiment on mango store for wasting time when we wait her parent to take we off

photograph by tiffany

Last moment.

Last week. Last day. On my lovely school. On my lovely class. :(

This week is the last week for me to have a regular lesson in my senior high school

So, I take a lot of photo with my friend in IA5 and teachers

And today, I take a photo using pudding camera application from tiffany's ipone

left to right : me, tiffany, nia

Thanks for today! :*

here we go, 2012

Welcome 2012! New year, new spirit, new hope. Wishing this year will be good for everyone, and wish we can have a wonderful year :)

So, what do you doing today, on the first day of this year?

I've go to Galaxy mall in Surabaya with my family and watching ghost protocol (ya! I know its to late, but i just have time to watch this movie after a long time).
And now, i have a early dinner on one of my mother's favorite chinese restaurant, Moi Garden.

seem so yummy, right? :9

XOXO,

Lydia

hello central java!

 

I've go to Jogja and solo for 5 days. Actually, i don't really like jogja. Not because the people or the city. I just don't like their culture. Jogja's people like to plays kuda lumping, and they possessed because of some 'unknown spirit' that enter to their body. In that condition, they can eat a glass or barbed wire, and sometimes they can attack people around there. It's really scared.
I've write that post not to make you hate Jogja's culture. Its just my opinion. By the way, there are some photo I take in jogja. Here is it.

Keep walking, Hamster!

What a beautiful sunflower.